Dreamer in Wonderland

♫Brian Kim - Jesus Christ  ♫Brian Kim - One Heart One Voice  ♫Brian Kim - 주가 일하시네

I was so OBSESSED with BRIAN KIM in these few days and I can't figure out why. It's about a year we did not contact to each other and probably he had already forgotten about me. But the thing is, why would I suddenly so obsess about him? I was even dreamed about him last Friday!
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I saw him in a fun park, in the afternoon. He's not with his worship members or crews, he was alone, walking in the fun park. I was curious, why this guy so familiar to see. I stared at him twice and thrice, is he Brian Kim? Since he was alone, I was dare to went to him and asked him " Are you Brian Kim". "Yes, I am", he replied. Then I happily shouted "hyung"!!! and wanted to hug him but I did not. "Do you remember me? I'm the one who called you "hyung" in Tweeter! and a year had passed, last year you came to Malaysia with your band for worship touring", I tried to explain. "Oh, I'm kinda remember", he smiled at me!! WOW, I was like "he remembered me"! I quickly took out my camera and snap only a piece of photograph because there's insufficient battery in my camera. Ouch, this ruin my mood! So, we walked together around the fun park, chit-chatting about something which I had forgotten. I was so happy and every minute I was thinking about the photo, thinking of letting my friends to get jealous because I get to meet back Brian Kim and took another photo with him. Not even ten minutes, he said he wanted to walk around himself and asked me to find him later. So I just left him. Approximately an hour later, I met back him and this time he was with Super Junior's Ryeowook! What? Isn't it ridiculous when no one came to scream that SUJU's member is in the fun park? There's really not even a teenager scream madly and they were just stare at Ryeowook as if he's a normal guy. Hmm, curious again. So, I ran towards them. "Annyeonghi Ryeowook oppa!" I wished Ryeowook. Brian introduced me to him. Too bad, I can't even switch on my camera so I did not took any photo with Ryeowook. And suddenly....  why am I sleeping at my bed? 

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It was Saturday, gotta wake up early and have to go to school. Aih, school replacement again. But what's make me happy is, dad's best friend and his family will be coming back for SMI old boys' gathering. Seriously, talking about him, dad and him was best friends for more than 35 yrs. Wow, how to do that? Even Kylie and I were just 16 yrs. Really praise them. Alright back to the topic. My family and this uncle's family were already like a family. His mom gained a stepson which is my son. And I gained 3 stepcousins which 2 daughter was this uncle's and another one is his sister's. So yeah, I'm happy because they came back. 

@ Station 1 for lunch

So, it's Monday. Dad's friend went back to KL and it's a school day. I went to school as usual and was exhausted when I came home. I slept on the sofa and I saw Brian Kim's look. Eh? Brian Kim again? And he disappeared to nowhere. I woke up from nap, it's tuition time. I was preparing myself and I was refreshed on last Friday's incident. Oh, was that a dream too? Yea, I think it was. I was having no expression even though it's a dream. After tuition, I was desperately open back all Brian Kim's songs and I realized that it was a waste that last Friday's incident is a dream. Aww, so sad - deeply hurt. I began to search his photos which I've taken with him last year when he came to M'sia. Oh, I was missing him. Bla! Blek! No point I lied to myself. NO! I can't be missing him! That's crazy, he already had a wife! Ah, fine..

Back to the main point, hmm, why am I so obsessed of him suddenly? Thinking back, I figured out something. I think...it's because of a person. It's true story now. That day on Matta Fair, there's a guy whom I met was having 80% same look with Brian Kim. He worked in UOB Bank and came to ask my dad to subscribe a credit card from UOB. Oh, no wonder this guy is so familiar but at that time I don't even thought that he looks like Brian Kim! Not even a second that I thought of Brian Kim although I knew that this guy looks like a person whom I saw before. By the way, he's a lil handsome and was just aged 28. I remembered he was staring at me while chatting with my dad since my dad doesn't want to subscribe the card. Few days later, I saw him again in Ipoh Parade and he recognized me. His handsomeness made me thought bout him for a day and then I had forget about this guy.

But Matta Fair had ended quite some time. Hmph, but I still think that this guy had made me dreamed of Brian Kim! I was really a dreamer in Wonderland on last Friday. Alright, story ends here. :))

Brian Kim's love story

I met Brian Kim last year in September at a church in Ipoh. Although I'm not a Christian but I'm always obsess about Korean! Brian isn't a popular kpop artist but he's popular in South Korea for his worship. He's a worship leader in Korea. Well, he was also have a duet group named Krygen, singing KPOP but it's infamous than his solo worship. He used to sing Christian songs in Korean and they were nice to hear eventually. So, I began to admire him in the first sight. I can't deny that he was handsome, he was also a caring person. At that moment, we always get contacted in Twitter with his name @BRIANKIMCCM and I called him "hyung", which I shouldn't called him like that. But if not "hyung", I couldn't call him "oppa". So, he let me to just call him as "hyung". So, it's about a year we did not get contact to each other because we don't know what to say to each other. And few days ago, I dreamed about him! I'm sure that I've took photo with him in a fun park but it was just a dream. Sadly, I went to search his photos and songs to show that I can't deny that I missed him. I missed the moment we tweeted to each other and meet each other in a church and for the first time I MET A KOREAN!! And today, just when I started to check on his photos again, I saw people's blog posting his love story and when I click the link, it was from his website. He had wrote his love story to people. As I read, I found that his love story is romantic, yet I should grant him and his wife to be together in their whole life.

Here's his love story entitled :
Introducing my Love.
 
I began liking her in the fall of 2007.
As I was leading worship at church, I noticed a beautiful woman worshipping her heart out.
I led worship in that same spot at that same time for the past 5 years, but it was the first time that I saw my 'love.' Her outward beauty drew my attention, but more than that... it was her inner beauty and her passion for the Lord in worship that attracted me the most.
 
Before that moment, I had actually known her for 3 whole years, but never once did I ask for her phone number nor did we have a long conversation. Honestly, we were not attracted to each other before that moment. So I asked myself : ' Why didn't I notice such a beautiful person before?' After that service, I began noticing aspects of her which were unseen before. I noticed how she would collect all the prayer requests of fellow church members in the prayer box. I also learned that she visited 8 different countries as a missionary in 2007. She taught little children in a Korean Montessori. I sensed her love for kids. And when several friends rode in my car, I could hear her humming along to the same english praise song with me. More than focusing on her outward appearance and beauty, I could sense her pure and simple nature, as well as her love for prayer and praise.
 
So, from simply being attracted to her, I fell in love with her.
I sensed this love being from God, and not of my own. I could see a future with her.
It wasn't simply about dating, but coming together as one, fulfilling the promises of God together as a family. I started to pray for us and our potential because I saw Jesus in her.
 
And from October 1st(2007) until November 1st(2007), I wrote in a prayer journal every day.
My heart and honest prayers were poured over those pages daily.
And this bible verse covered the last entry of that journal.
 
'So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her' Genesis 29:20.
 
I wanted to let her know that I could wait on her. The fact was that she planned to go to Los Angeles for her studies in Design the following month. So even if things went well, we would be separated by long distance. However, there was a strong assurance in my heart that we should be together for a lifetime and if that was the case.... then I would wait.
 
So after much prayer, I asked her to meet me for dinner on November 1st. 
After the main meal, during our dessert, I expressed to her my heart. 
I shared with sincerity and boldness, that I was attracted to her. 
But to my surprise, she gave me a strong rejection : NO!
Her answer shocked me and caused me so much pain. 
 
After that first 'date,' I prayed fervently for another week. I asked the Lord to move her heart...
to change her heart... One week later, I confessed to her one more time, that I couldn't
lose her... and that I wouldn't give up. However, once again, she replied with a fervent 'No!'
She wasn't interested at all. She seemed quite cold to me at the time.
 
I went home that night and got on my knees again.
' Lord, you know my heart! I desire to be with this woman for the rest of my life.
When we come together as a married couple, we can unite for Your Kingdom and Your
purposes. She is an intercessor who can pray for me and the ministry You've bestowed upon me. You have called me a 'Father of Many Nations,' and I can clearly see her passion for missions.
She shares a heart for praise and worship as well. Lord, I see you in her! Please stir her heart and change her decision Lord!'
 
Suddenly, in the middle of my prayer, I remembered how she would share with me her dreams, and how God spoke through those dreams. 
So I added an extra prayer: 
' Father, would you allow her to dream about me tonight!! haha
Allow me to show up in her dream!  Amen~! haha'
 
After that moment, for 2 entire weeks I didn't contact her once. I had done my best with my strength, and she rejected me 2 times already. And she was still not interested, even a little bit. 
So I gave everything to the Lord... But just because I didn't call her, did not mean that I stopped praying. Everyday I prayed more fervently and more specifically for her and for us. Within 
the content of those prayers, not only were my desires present, but also a willingness to surrender her to God's will if she wasn't His will... Not my will, but Yours... because God knows what's best!
 
And after those 2 weeks, my heart became so free. God reminded me of His wonderful love for me. I began to trust His plan for me...even my marriage plans.
Suddenly one evening, I received a text message... from her, the woman I love.
 
She shared with me that I had showed up in her dream the night before!
And that is why she contacted me first. She said that I had a worried, troubled expression on my face in her dream. So I replied half-joking: ' We're you worried about me?'  She replied :No . 
After our conversation, I questioned God about this relationship. 
Does she like me? Why did she call me if she wasn't interested? Lord, what do I do now?!!
 
However, she texted me again after only 30 minutes.
'Brian. Honestly, I lied to you. I was worried about you all day long.'
 
Wow! God is good! hahaha
After we hung up the phone, we agreed to meet a week later, since she wasn't entirely sure about us. But before that week passed by, several of our mutual friends went out to watch a movie.
Among the ten or so that showed up, a pastor that we both knew approached me and started me with his question. 'Brian, are you praying for your future spouse?' I was shocked to hear him ask this question at such a crucial moment in my life. Then he entirely blew me away with his next comment: 'Brian, have you ever considered Jenny?' 
 
At that moment, I was so overwhelmed and surprised that he mentioned her name!
How could he know? No one told him!! No one knows... He shouldn't know!haha
Then he began to explain, how he sensed the two of us being perfect for each other because we shared a passion for the Lord. He just sensed God's plan and touch in our lives, and normally he wouldn't interfere in such relationships... but he felt a burdent to share his heart ...
And once Jenny heard from the pastor, she was more overwhelmed and shocked...
The reason for her shock was because several months prior the same pastor recommended her
to guard her heart from men... to be careful with her relationships... but here he was now...
recommending Me  to her!!
 
Honestly, there are more testimonies and crazy happenings regarding our relationship.
Without God, we would definitely not be together.
We were two people in the same church, who barely knew the existence of the other for 3 entire years in the same church.
However, in God's time and in God's plan...we were able to meet each other.
 
I strongly believe that everything happend through the power of prayer.
 
Currently, I am touring and recording and through the medium of culture and music , influencing the next generation as a Light. 
However, before my music and career, my priority is to this beautiful woman 
(right after Jesus of course).
 
When two become one in Christ, God can do even greater things!
As we unite, the impossible become possible!
Jacob's confession has become my confession now...
 
This is the person that I love the most, right after Jesus...
She is now my wife of almost two years, my partner in this journey of Faith.
 
Thank You God. 
Thank You Jenny.
 
On This Valentine's Day, 
and also every day...
I love You with His Love...
 
Brian Kim

Graduation Night 2012

Finally!!! Finally I'm officially qualified to attend the Graduation Night!! It's actually a night for Form 5s of MGS that held once a year, and this year, it's my turn to attend it! Not those graduation ceremony but is like a night to party with teachers and schoolmates. And, Graduation Night is actually my school, MGS's tradition to held once a year! So, each person paid RM40. The venue was at Kinta Riverfront Hotel&Suites. And, just for that night, I've took 120 photos but after deleted some spoiled photos, now left 106 pieces. Oh, I've just forgotten to tell when was this held. Well, it was held on 21st Sept. Alright, I'm not going to post the photos here but I'm going to post a video which I've made and also some photos which are my favourites.

Video #1

Video #2

And here's the favourite photos of mine for that night.. Enjoyyyy :)

Grandfather's Big Day

♫ Seoul FM

*SUN,16/9/2012*
(Morning). First one to wake up in the family although its late to wake up at that time. Found out nothing to do so started on some handicraft - flowers made of tissue papers which thought by Chee Cheng when Form 3. Done it just when the other family members got themselves ready to go out for breakfast.

middle of work :)

D.O.N.E! :)

Having breakfast at Ipoh Garden and ate a childish western food. #Firsttime.

FISH word made from mayonise ><

After breakfast, we went to the pharmacy nearby and shopped for one hour at there. What a waste of time. Then we went to the Meru Valley showhouse. Not the Meru Golf Club but the other new housing area, which all were bungalows! Wow, all houses were more than billions o.O 
I get to sneak some awesome photos in the bungalows although it's prohibited to do so :P

#frames

After the show houses, dad thought of bringing us to Mydin but unfortunately, it's already mid afternoon where half of the day has gone and mom also disagree dad to bring us to Mydin. So we stopped by at a Malay shop, Masta Gani, which was famous in Teluk Intan for our lunch. Mee rebus, Rojak and Cendol were famous in that shop and we tried all of them. NOT BAD! But, there are lots of flies. Yucks. I saw a picture of Kaabah in Mekah on the wall and I started to tell the Kaabah and Nabi s.a.w story which I've learned in Sejarah to my family. Haha, too addicted in Sejarah.
Oh, forgotten one part. Sis broke my Fipper slipper :( So after the lunch, on the way back home, dropped by on a shoe shop where I bought my broken Fipper slipper. And now, the new one, I brought back Fipper slipper but different colour. 

New VS Old

Which one do you prefer? After buying slipper, went back to home to bath and rest. Sigh, it was evening already. Grandparents will come to my house 3 hours more, to go out for dinner - celebrating grandfather's birthday!! So, we went to Aeon. At first, we went to Dragon-I but full of people, then Taang Sifu, full of people again. Then Suki Cili Pedas Steamboat, seems like too expensive for us. Then finally Sushi King! Hooray :D All of us ordered set dinners. And we add some ala carte, you know the sushi-s in different colour of plates on the "tut-tut-train", yea, children always say like that even I as well ><

After dinner, mom and I dropped by at Daiso to check out some so called "puffs" to be used for travelling in Dec to Korea!! 

Then, we went back home to take something. Guess what? At that time which was 10.30pm, we went out again to my aunt's house. We were having party there. Fuhh, not expected right? Dad, grandparents and aunt played mahjong. Mom, uncle and I watched Astro. Siblings were playing computer games. Zzzz, as always... Then what about the baby cousin? Haha, she played around with herself. Pity her.. And sometimes, she disturb me.. Aww, so cute!! We drank sparkling juices and ate fish snacks that night. Wow, fantastic baby, I had a wonderful time there :)

We went back home at 2am! Oh, thought bout 2AM, the Kpop male group. Haha.. Damn tired and all of us woke up very late the next morning.Okay, that was about my Grandpa's big day.
Now, I have something to introduce. I bought two new leisure books which total worth more than RM100! Guess what book is that? Taa-dah!! 

Now I've a total of four books related with Korea. #collection  #Korealanguage  #leisurebooks

So, it's coming to the end of blogging. You know today, the day which I write this post, is actually fall on an important week! Today was Wed, and Fri is my graduation night!! Oh, so excited. I'm going to wear a 5-inches high heels! :D

Here's the door-gift given by the school. Gotta bring it together for admission. Ma Guai Fan.. tsk..tsk.. Alright, it's 10.00pm now, I shall watch Tv :) Bye, see you hmm, Sat? to blog about my graduation night on Fri. Hehe :)

door-gift :)

A Day To Remember

~ 7 Sept 2012,
   went to school,
   only 10 girls were present in my class,
   no exam,
   but 4 classes sat in the hall together- chit chatting,

   from 7.30am until school dismiss,

   chit-chatting non stop,

   no teacher asking us to SHUT UP,

   What an awesome day!! :D ~

 ♫  Gangnam Style ♫  Seaweed Soup ♫  Blue Frog

Morning! Ah, long time no blog eh? I'M BACK!!! with joy :) I purposely woke up early in the morning to blog about my awesome school day yesterday since I've stop my blogging on July! Seriously, I became very lazy to blog but em, I can't stand that my blog was outdated. Anyway, back to our topic :)

I started my Trials in Aug 28th that's why I'm blogging lesser and lesser. So, yesterday which was 7th Sept, was a "no exam day" :) Students got to go to school as usual, so I, which famous in "full attendants in schooling", went to school with smiling face :) why? because I knew that students who go to school today will be less, uhm, less noisy though :) Luckily my friends got went to school, if not, I'm really bored to death. So, early in the morning, as usual, I sleep in school until the assembly starts. After the assembly, 5S1 & 5S3 gotta go to Chemi Lab, leaving 5S2 and 5S4 in the exam hall. Aww, Kylie, Gean and Leon leaving Seow Ying and I early in the morning. At first I thought it will be a boring moment but when we entered the hall, the teachers let us to sit in groups and cit-chatting. LOL! And at the same time I realized that only 10 girls (plus me) out of 34girls of 5S2 present!! Our class broke the record for this year. Only our class out of 8 classes have such poor attendants. The hall was absolutely peaceful and silent, even 5S4 also have quite few girls. So, Seow Ying and I sat in groups, preparing to study. But then, we ended up chit-chatting. Most of our topics were about Kpop :)

About 9am, The 5S1 & 5S3 students came inside the hall. OH MAN! the hall was so noisy, no more peaceful and the hall was full of students. Seriously, I hate places being crowded. But, Kylie, Gean and Leon came back, together with us. At first we touched some books but we figured out that we can't put our attention on them. So, we ended up talking too. Gean, Leon an I started with the topic of a MGS ex-girl, Amanda who got beaten by her husband, then we talk bout husbands, the kind of guys that we want to meet with, then the gap of the guy and us, how many years we want to date together, when we want to get marry and bla bla.. All was about GUYS and the future of us. After that we continued our topic on the Grad Nite event. Kylie and Seow joined our conversation. We talk non-stop until recess time.

During recess, Kylie, Leon and I bought the same food, Laksa.. Yummy... Then Seow and Tracy ate nasi tomato which attracted Leon to eat that too, but she knew she can't finish the food alone so Kylie and I shared with her. Gean helped us to buy and wanted to get 20cent as her commission. Haha. The food cost RM2.50, each or us paid 90 cents and the 20cents gave to Gean. What a funny moment. A really "family" moment. Gean was like a mother of triplets (Kylie, Leon and I). Gean divide the rice and the chicken equally for 3 of us. We ate like a real triplets although our looks were not alike, sharing the same plate but different spoons. :) This moment which I've ever had in my 5 yrs of schooling in secondary school. 

After recess time was over, we went back into hall and chit-chatting again. Ah, chit-chatting again. Seriously, we tried to talk and at the same time we open some books to study. NO USE. We had our hard time. So, end up, we just open our books and talk and talk non-stop. Laughing loudly in the hall is an awesome moment we had yesterday. We talk about many funny topics. We teased each other about each other's admirer. Aih, what a teenager life, friends teasing one another's admirer!! After that we continued the Grad Nite topic again, when Seow asked Kylie what her dress looked like. Gean said Kylie's dress look sexy. Just then came out the "sexy lady" word. With that word, we all thought bout the Gangnam Style song which got the word. Then we just simply sang out the song together, in the hall, got seen by the other girls.

Laughing badly, another idea came out from Gean's mind, The "Yiha Style" that she said I gotta make. So, we just composed some lines from Gangnam Style song to the Yiha Style song. Our incomplete lyrics, " ehh, sexy lady, oppa Yiha style!", we sang out. Then I make the Yiha sounds like cowboy singing, they all replaced the Sexy Lady version to Sexy Cowboy. And I make some changes too. So, it will be "ehh, sexy cowboy, Yii, Yii, Yii, Yii, Hah, Hah, Yiha style!!" (cowboy sound must be present). Time flow so fast, it was already 12.30pm, time to go home. Aye, we really chat from morning 8am till dismiss school without stopping. What a waste of time but we got lots of fun :)

We walked together from the hall to the school's main gate. Leon when back the other way. As we were passing the field, Tracy joined us. Kylie and Seow were busying introducing Tracy on what we've done on the Gnagnam Style song. Gean asked me to demo to Tracy and I did. We laughed badly. Then, we together sang our new lyrics just in the middle of the school field. I danced and make the Yihaaa sound like a cowboy because of addiction that I'm having. Without our concern, we were actually been watching by the other students who walked pass us. I saw them looking us like we were crazy. We really sang happily. But, any happy moments we are having will still end right? Just that we can keep the happy moment as remembering roots. So, when we reached the main gate, we stopped singing, stopped laughing because we gotta go back, gotta be separate. "Bye", we said to each other and this day had been in our history book forever, a day that we should remember.

Although we wasted the whole day's time., but we just treat it as a "Release Stress Day" since we no need to sit for exam and it's a Friday,tomorrow is a holiday. :) After the school, Kylie and I went to Accounts tuition. We went to 7Eleven to buy some junks since there's still an hour more to start the class. Another one happening at there. We bought Slurpee, the machine which always troubled us every time we went there. Again, the Slurpee thing splashed out. Aih, we had a trouble time at there. So, I should end my blogging here, I've used an hour and a long page. Without knowing eh? Haha, later I'm going to meet Kylie, Gean and Leon for tuition :) Gotta go, Byeeee!! :P